Stupefied in Enchantment

I have just finished Harry Potter.

That statement itself explains everything that I am thinking right now. Some people may say that it is ridiculous to be so moved by a book - and especially such a popularized book such as the magnificent Harry Potter. But I tend to disagree with these people - for these are the people who do not recognize all the incredible joys and wonderments that are readily availible to us. Okay, I may be a bit sensitive and passionate towards things that others do not even regard - but I speak the truth when it comes to simple pleasures in life. Never have I been so animated and installed by pages of words arranged in an ingenious form to create such an absurd, yet enticing, story about good, evil, love, hate, loyalty, betrayal, humor, and tragedy...it's purely genious. I am still stunned by this.

I love drawing myself away from the troubles of the world today to enter a truly fictionous (or non-fictionous) and captivating world. Whether I am referring to stepping inside the gates of Hogwarts or revisiting the excitements of Paris a century ago in history books...I get this sense of comfort and relief, forgetting my perils that lay before me in the present. But, contradictily, I also find itimacy immersing myself in today's society, observing and reacting with people living in the 21st century. People are fascinating to me, and I love being around them. Some may say that they do not believe me, aesthically seeing my shy qualities and introverted nature. But, they are mistaken - I may not be the loudest one in the group, but I find comfort being around others who acknowledge me. I rarely like sitting alone or working individually - I'd much rather be with people and share ideas, thoughts, and feelings. However, I don't want to be considered "just another person" within a group of people...but rather "that particular person" in a group of really great friends. I love intimacy and conversing with a certain group of people, and getting to really know these people rather than just catching their names. It all makes sense - I have grown up knowing a really tight-knit group of people, and so it clearly shows that I am attracted to that sort of relationship. There is no questioning that I undoubtingly prefer going to a small liberal arts school than an overcrowded state university. I'd rather know people on a personal basis as opposed to just an objective acquaintance.

I would refer to myself as the Ron Weasley...I am the devoted and caring friend. I am not the extremely daring and extroverted Harry Potter nor am I the apprehensive (although very brilliant) Hermoine Granger. These are what the wonders of J.K. Rowling do to me...they spur my mind to engage and think.

Long Time No See

I seemed to have neglected my blogger...I don't know why - I think my life has gone completely insane these last few months. Despite my lack of commitment to this internet journal, I'm going to write tonight. Besides, who reads this anyways?

I am slow to realize that I am growing up. I have one more year of highschool left...and after that I head to college. I am almost clueless when it comes to deciding what I want to do with life and where I want to go, it is beginning to scare me. My worst nightmare is to fail in life, and regret any decisions that effected my failure. I have always suceeded in everything - and I worked hard to get where I am now. I have always put in more effort than what's expected...and I get noted for my aspirations. So, in reality, I should go to a school that appreciates my hard work and creative spirit in order for me to get what I want. But, I have this little pessimistic feeling in me saying that I will not always get what I want...and it scares me. I am anal when it comes to colleges, and for some reason I will never be satisfied if I attend LCCC or UW. The one thing that I do not like about Wyoming is the fact that the majority of highschool kids declare that Wyoming is the only place where they can go to school. There are so many other schools in our country that exceed far beyond the academics of UW...so many other environments...so many other people...so many opportunities. The highschool administrations do not make this situation any better - counselors, principles, and teachers proclaim that, "UW has this," and, "UW has that"... but what about those other colleges across the nation? Isn't highschool supposed to be a place to explore and discover opportunities that will help students decide what to do with life? Yet, instead our highschools are merely being advertisors for UW...or LCCC...or whatever. It's almost sick.

It is almost midnight, and there are so many thoughts running through my head at the same time. Thoughts about school, thoughts about this summer, thoughts about my previoius trip to Europe, thoughts about tennis, thoughts about him, thoughts about sleeping...thoughts about life. I could write a novel if I were to write about everything that was on my mind at the momemt - yet since I don't have the time nor patience, I will just sleep on it. Sleep is good to me, so I shall acquire it.

This was merely a rant...oh well, rants are alright - especially when it is 11:56 pm and you have no one to talk to except your fingers and your keyboard.